Worn Out

This has been a difficult week for me already, and it is only Wednesday. Tensions created by indifference are wearing me down. Peggy and I are struggling to keep things afloat, and while we are fine, we are more than a little concerned about Ian. His indifference is staggering.

I know that satan (I never capitalize his name, he is not worthy of that much respect), is working hard on me this week, as I try to prepare a sermon since Danny will be on vacation Sunday. I know that satan wants to knock me off track as I study about "Which King Will You Serve?" I know that I have to dig in that much harder. I also know that I am physically, mentally, and spiritually tired today. Even more so than yesterday, and I didn't think that was possible.

I am not trying to throw a self pity party here, just stating fact. I know that God is able. I believe that God is victorious. I have no doubt that I love Jesus with all my heart, and that He loves me inspite of myself. It is no coincidence that a big part of my study this week has come from 1 Kings 19:3-13 where Elijah is whining to God and God shows Elijah what's what. It is no coincidence that I am preparing a message about "Which King Do You Serve?" Even if no one else needs to hear that message Sunday, I do.

Being relatively new to this whole blog thing, I don't know if these ramblings would be considered good blog materials, but since I am about the only one reading this stuff, I guess it doesn't really matter, eh? This is theraputic though. These are things I can journal about that I wouldn't necessarily send in my daily devotions. These are things I wouldn't necessarily talk about from the pulpit or in a lesson. So, I guess I can just whine all I want on this blog, eh? And when I am finished whining, I will praise God for putting up with me, even in the midst of my whining!